last night was one of the worst nights of my life. i think the worst night. we had a party. it was pretty good even though a lot of people didn't show up (but my glitter friends did!). then a very close friend of mine kind of flipped out in a way i never could have foreseen him doing. he scared his girlfriend and the responsibility of "wrangling" him fell to me. i handled it pretty well, everyone told me so, but it was still not something i ever wanted to deal with. he was like a totally different person which is not how you want to see someone you love and care about. i think he was even rude to someone from glitter which pisses me off, but just heightens my concern since, again, that's very unlike him.
he was drunk or on some drug he wouldn't tell us about and so we wouldn't let him drive. which really pissed him off. finally, FINALLY, i got him to let me drive him home in his car while my roommate followed us to drive me back home.
the worst part was when he just "mentioned" that the worst part for him was that his roommate had a gun. he actually said that shit!! talk about a mindfuck! that absolutely tore me up to hear. when i got in my roommate's car i just started sobbing. i don't really know what he's capable of. and he wouldn't let me in to see if his roommate was awake.

aaagh! there's no real intent to this post, other than i need to get it out. to type it, to feel it. to apologize to anyone who might have encountered him last night. i'm still pretty freaked out, to say the least. i know this isn't over. maybe if you guys can keep him in yr thoughts and prayers or whatever else? because i think he needs it. and well, his "girlfriend" as well. . .


(i'll go ahead and apologize for the length and vague nature of this post.)

wow, i'm sorry you had to go through that. i'm proud of you for being strong enough to handle him and to get him home safely. i hope your friend will be safe and it's just something he's on that's causing him to say such terrible things and i hope he knows he' hurting the people around him so he'll won't do it again.

(((hug)))

jangrl. :)

thanks, jangrl. yeah, i don't know that he got that he was acting abnormal. i'm worried that he won't see that after the fact either. we're thinking he was on something- coke, crystal meth- something that could alter him that much. who knows if he'll even remember last night. . .
thanks

That is horrible, I am sorry that you had to go through that. At least you know that you probably saved his life and the life of who ever he would have hit. How scary, I dont know what I would have done. What are you going to do now?

I had a great time at your party and thank you for inviting all your glitter friends. I am sorry he put you through that but you don't need to apologize for him. The best part of the party for me was just hanging out with you and meeting nice people like your roommate.

i'm sorry you had to deal with that hon...he was starting to flip out as i was heading off - i just thought he was extremely drunk. it was smart to not let him drive - no matter how pissed off people get you can't allow them to hurt themselves like that.

but on a side note - i had a loverly time and think you are the best.

thanks gals.
marilee and becca- i'm glad you had a good time. i'm glad you left when you did.

well, my roommate won't be seeing him. ever again. they talked yesterday and she ended up just yelling at him. now he thinks we plotted the whole thing against him beforehand. very weird. i don't think he'll ever realize what really happened. but at least we know he has this side to him now. they were supposed to go to new orleans next week- can you imagine? it's safe to say that i have been turned off guys for the time being. eek

it seems that so many of my friends are calling things off with their long-term boys right now. something in the air, i guess.